daniel

Mar 21, 2011

Daniel.

Daniel…what a name. What a legacy. Daniel who refused the king’s meat. Daniel who prayed in spite of the prohibition to call upon the God of Israel. Daniel who courageously stood for truth.

This Daniel was taken home before he ever took a breath here on earth. This Daniel was prayed for for eight long years. This Daniel was loved and yearned for. This Daniel will never be able to do the things his namesake did – at least on earth.

This Daniel is beautiful with long eyelashes and a perfect body. This Daniel looks just like his mama.

My heart is aching for his precious family.

What to say?

What to do?

How can I be God’s hands in the midst of their grief?

I don’t know. I have no magic words. I can’t reverse the clock. I can’t give them their baby back.

I found a poem that speaks to my heart. Maybe it will speak to theirs as well.

What Makes A Mother

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today,
I asked, “What makes a Mother?”
And I know I heard him say:
A Mother has a baby,
This we know is true
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby’s not with you?

Yes, you can, he replied
With confidence in his voice,
I give many women babies,
When they leave it is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day,
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there’s no need to stay.

I just don’t understand this God,
I want my baby here.

He took a breath,
and cleared his throat,
And then I saw a tear.
I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing Here…

If you could see your child smile
With other children and say,
“We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear,
but My mommy loved me so much
I got to come straight here!”
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me,
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy, oh so much
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow is where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear,
“Mommy, Please don’t be sad today,
I’m your baby and I am here”

So you see my dear sweet one,
Your child is okay.
Your baby is here in My home,
And this is where he’ll stay.
He’ll wait for you with Me,
Until your lessons there are through,
And on the day that you come home,
He’ll be at the gates waiting for you

So now you see
What makes a Mother,
It’s the feeling in your heart,
It’s the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.

Author Unknown

Jacob and Natasha, I love you and am praying for you. I know you are not alone.