back handsprings
Today I did four back handsprings.
I cannot tell you how much joy it brought to my heart to do them…to prove to myself I could still do them.
I don’t always (or perhaps even often) show just how much this whole breast lump experience has rocked my world and made me question my body and its abilities. I was in a lot of pain for several months and at times was completely unable to lift my arm at all. I was in pain while sleeping. I was in pain while driving. I felt weak and tired and completely not myself.
I feel like I am coming back. Almost like being born again. As each day goes on I feel more and more myself. As I do things, the old things that were once easy and regular for me, I feel like I am returning to the me I know.
Perhaps it doesn’t make sense to anyone else. No one else was in my heart and head for the past many months. No one else knew how absolutely terrified I was of dying…or even of living WITH breast cancer.
I still may have to make that journey with cancer. I am full of questions about my breast and the general health of my body…I don’t know what is going on and I don’t know what I need to do. One thing I do know is today’s back handsprings will help me on that path.
For they reminded me of just how strong I am and that I can do hard things.
I'm Tracy, a mama with big dreams, crazy ideas, loads of laughter, an insatiable desire to learn, and enormous piles of laundry.
HOORAY!!!
Tracy, you are amazing.
Thanks Tasha…but back handsprings aren’t that amazing. I have been doing them since I was a wee lass and they are about the same as riding a bike for me. Raising nine children with patience, love, and an unwavering dedication to God? That is amazing!
Oh my heck! Were they in a row? Surely not! One at a time? Good for you. Actually, we are all healing in our own way, with you . . . you are leading the procession!
One and then later three in a row!
Woooo-hoooooooo!!!! :-D Go Tracy! GO!!!