back handsprings

Sep 23, 2011

Today I did four back handsprings.

I cannot tell you how much joy it brought to my heart to do them…to prove to myself I could still do them.

I don’t always (or perhaps even often) show just how much this whole breast lump experience has rocked my world and made me question my body and its abilities. I was in a lot of pain for several months and at times was completely unable to lift my arm at all. I was in pain while sleeping. I was in pain while driving. I felt weak and tired and completely not myself.

I feel like I am coming back. Almost like being born again. As each day goes on I feel more and more myself. As I do things, the old things that were once easy and regular for me, I feel like I am returning to the me I know.

Perhaps it doesn’t make sense to anyone else. No one else was in my heart and head for the past many months. No one else knew how absolutely terrified I was of dying…or even of living WITH breast cancer.

I still may have to make that journey with cancer. I am full of questions about my breast and the general health of my body…I don’t know what is going on and I don’t know what I need to do. One thing I do know is today’s back handsprings will help me on that path.

For they reminded me of just how strong I am and that I can do hard things.

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  2. Tasha

    Tracy, you are amazing.

    • tracy

      Thanks Tasha…but back handsprings aren’t that amazing. I have been doing them since I was a wee lass and they are about the same as riding a bike for me. Raising nine children with patience, love, and an unwavering dedication to God? That is amazing!

  3. Anne

    Oh my heck! Were they in a row? Surely not! One at a time? Good for you. Actually, we are all healing in our own way, with you . . . you are leading the procession!

  4. tracy

    One and then later three in a row!

  5. Woooo-hoooooooo!!!! :-D Go Tracy! GO!!!