the one inch undoing

Nov 16, 2013

Last night was our big iFamily Fall Showcase – an opportunity for all of our members to get together for dinner, listen to our Orchestra and Choirs perform, and for students to display their projects from this semester. It is always lots of fun.

Unfortunately I missed it.

Well, I didn’t miss all of it. I was present, but I didn’t see any of the performances or get to visit with friends or take any pictures of my cute kiddos. Minutes after I got there, I twisted my ankle (my right ankle so my hip rolled out as well, drat it all!) on a teesy-weensy, itty-bitty ramp and fell to the floor. I kid you not, this incline is the tiniest thing ever and yet it still threw me off kilter. It seems I have little ability to stay upright once I get off-balance these days. Then the stupid sympathetic nervous system response started. The racing heart, the shaking, the passing out. I tried to fight it and even tried to stand up by crawling up the wall, but I could tell it was a no-go and I wasn’t going to stay conscious. My body was already in freak out mode. I called out in a whisper for someone to get Sheri and amazingly enough, Sheri was already right behind me ready to help. Thank goodness! She is an absolute pro at dealing with my body when I am unconscious. She took care of me for the next several hours. I am so, so grateful for her loving, expert care.

The whole debacle happened at the doorway into the gym right before the event got underway, so all our attendees had to walk past me and see me lying there with my limbs shaking, drool on my face, and clothing all skewampus. Not a pretty sight for anyone and especially not for all my little friends in the ten and under crowd. I hope none of them are too scared from the whole thing.

I missed hearing most of the Orchestra performance, but was able to hear quite a bit of the Choir while I laid in the hallway covered in ice packs and blankets. Then, my Annesley sang her heart out for Sheri’s “We Are Amazing” choir and I could hear her voice loud and clear.

This morning my ankle is pretty sore, my hip is really sore and my plan is to stay in bed and read all day long. The five batches of laundry I needed to get done today can wait, right?

I really, really, REALLY wish this would stop happening. It is starting to impact so much of my life. I never know when it is going to happen or how long it will last or who will be with me when I go down. It is absolutely amazing to me that every single time it has happened wonderful, caring, knowledgeable people have been with me. I have never been left alone to shake by myself. I think God keeps sending the right people at the right time to be by my side. Sometimes I desperately want Him to stop it from happening when what I really need to focus on is how He is taking care of me when it does.

A big thanks to everyone who took care of me last night. Lots of different people kneeled down and rubbed the charley-horses out of my neck, arms, and thighs. Others took care of my children. Others helped Richard get me out to the car. I’m sure many people prayed for me.

I am surrounded by goodness. Heaps of it.

Related Posts


  1. Debbie

    We love you Tracy! So glad you could hear your Annesley,

  2. Oh my goodness. I guess this is happening so frequently that it is becoming common-place, because you used to call when things were going on and now I just read them a couple of days later. My heart breaks for you every single day! I hope you are feeling a little better today!

  3. Oh man! Tracy, I am so sorry.

  4. My heart aches for you. We have never met but I want you to know that I think of you often and have prayed for you and your family many times. May God bless and bless and bless you!

    • tracy


      My heart just filled right up with joy when I read your kind comment. Thank you for praying for me. Thank you for thinking of me and sending love. It means the world to me and on the bad days I often find comfort in knowing there are people all over the world who are praying for me.

      May God bless you too!

  5. Rachel


    You continue to be in my prayers, sweet Tracy. I love you!!!

  6. You are amazing Tracy. I wish you a day of peace and rest. :)

    • tracy

      I spent two full days in bed and felt much better by the time Monday rolled around. Now I am trying to be more careful of where I step! Those one inch ramps will take you down every time, haha!


  1. growing up | Wet Oatmeal Kisses - […] Someday I will find my camera so you can see these little cuties. I lost it the night of…